Guys... emergency announcement.
Gather around, bring your popcorn, a blanket to cry into, and maybe a helmet because this news is gonna hit harder than my crippling realization at a family function.
So... recently, I experienced something that shook me to my core.
I realized something devastating.
My passion? Writing.
My wallet? Crying in the corner.
Turns out, passion is great for the soul, but terrible for the bank account.
When I tried to buy myself a soda using "emotional satisfaction" as currency, the vending machine just laughed at me and then took my last coin anyway. Cruel world.
But you know what really drove the final nail into my coffin of dreams?
Family Function.
Yup. I went to a family function, hoping for free food and polite conversations, but instead...
RELATIVES: "So, you're still doing that... writing thing?"
ME: "Yes! It's my dream!"
RELATIVES: [laughing in middle-class expectations]*
RELATIVES: "Maybe you should get a real job, you know? Like accountancy, or opening a tea shop!"
I got roasted harder than the chicken on the buffet table, friends.
By the end of the function, even the toddler was giving me financial advice.
TODDLER: "Maybe invest in crypto."
ME: dies inside, respectfully*
And then it hit me.
I can't live on dreams and air alone.
(Unless I evolve into a photosynthesizing plant, which, sadly, is still pending.)
AND THEN, to make things even better...
The cherry on top of my existential crisis cake...
The contract for this novel got rejected.
Yup.
Full-speed rejection. No brakes. No apologies.
They didn't even hesitate.
It was like:
"Dear applicant, no."
THE END.
10/10 Pain. Would recommend if you hate yourself.
BUT!!
I refuse to give up.
This story — THIS BEAUTIFUL, CHAOTIC STORY — is my heart.
It's my soul poured into words. It's my child, my masterpiece, my emotional support plotline.
SO!
I've decided:
This novel will remain my beloved passion project.
I will still pour my blood, sweat, tears, and probably some spilled coffee into it.
Meanwhile...
I'm going to **create a new novel!**
One designed to survive the brutal, money-hungry wilderness known as "real life."
One that will (hopefully) make publishers throw money at me like I'm a magical unicorn!
Right now, I'm in the "big-brain thinking" phase.
Plotlines are popping off in my head like fireworks.
Characters are lining up, fighting each other to be the main character.
Even the villain I haven't created yet is already demanding more screen time.
It's chaos. But **beautiful** chaos.
AND WHEN I FINALLY RELEASE IT...
I will need your support.
Your hype.
Your undying loyalty.
Your ability to comment "FIRST" at light speed.
Your emotional investment that could power an entire anime season.
You, yes YOU, reading this right now, you are part of my army.
Together, we will conquer the literary world, one overly dramatic emotional breakdown at a time.
So in short:
Passion stays.
New novel incoming.
Family still roasting me.
Wallet still crying.
Me: Still fighting like a shounen protagonist who refuses to lose.
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For real... I just want to take a moment to say something from the bottom of my heart.
I truly, truly appreciate all the support you've given me.
Every comment, every like, every little moment you spent reading my story — it means more to me than words can express.
Sometimes, when life gets heavy and doubts creep in, it's your encouragement that reminds me why I started writing in the first place.
You all are not just readers. You are my strength, my motivation, and my family in this little corner of the world we've built together.
I won't lie... there are moments where I wish I could gather all my relatives, sit them down, and proudly say —
"You might laugh at my passion... but I have over 50,000 amazing readers who believe in me, who enjoy my story, who stand by me even when things get tough."
I wish I could show them the truth — that what I do matters, that what we've built together is real and beautiful.**
Even if I can't show them right now, it's okay.
Because deep down, I know it.
And you know it.
And honestly, that's more than enough for me.
Thank you, truly, for being a part of this journey.
For trusting me with your time, your imagination, and your emotions.
Let's keep walking this path together — one chapter, one dream, and one small miracle at a time.
From the bottom of my heart —
Thank you.
THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE.
THANK YOU FOR EXISTING.
LET'S MAKE HISTORY TOGETHER!