I don't know what to do today. I washed my clothes yesterday so that is out of my to-do list.
Yesterday proved to be a hard day. After the fight with Nelly, we haven't talked. And Regina tried to cheer me up. Honestly I know it is my fault but I have too much pride to apologize.
But I still don't understand why she is so interested in Sean?
Why am I even interested in him?
Do I like him? Definitely not. He is a playboy. I do have to admit that he is hot and all that but at the end of the day, I will only get heartbroken there. And if we do smash, who knows how many STIs I will get. Honestly speaking he is not my type.
I leave my room to Nelly's. My aim is to apologize. I really shouldn't have said that I said. "Mira isn't enough?" Wtf is that?
I knocked and she said come in somewhere in her room. I entered and realised that she was busy studying.
"Nelly I would like to apologize. Honestly speaking I was out of line. What I said, I said it out of anger." I said. I stood there next to the door waiting for her to reply.
"Loverina, I never thought you would say such a thing."
"But that's..." I interrupt only for her to raise her hand to stop me.
"Let me finish. As I was saying, I never thought that you out of all people would say that. Mira is a hoe for heaven's sake. And you compare me? To her?"
"That's why I came here. To apologize. I know what I said won't change anything but can you forgive me?"
"You forgive. Not many people would have the guts to come and admit their mistakes. And maybe I over did it with the whole Sean thing." She said looking at me smiling
"I hear you. He is hot. But I don't like his playboy ways."
"His father doesn't like it either." She say.
"How do you know so much about him?" I asked kind of shocked. Now thinking back, she seemed to be the only one who knew quite that much about him. I thought he was just another spoiled brat who thinks they can have their ways with girls.
"We come from the same place. And I've had a crush on him since I was a girl. But he always told me that he was waiting for someone special." She said with a distant look in her eyes as if recalling past memories. I just watched her as she talked. And I got more curious to know more about him. Coming back from her trance she shook her head as if trying to get rid of her memories. "I have said enough. What are you doing today?"
"I don't know. Eat sleep and repeat?" I said with a smile on my face.
She laughed at me. I made my way out of the compound and went to the shops. They weren't that far. About 20 minutes walk. A year here and I got used to it.
My aim was to go there and get my face stuffed with food. The walk is what I call exercise. More and I might just die.
***
I really want to withdraw money but I guess today Eskom has a mind of its own. Its load shedding means there is no electricity in the whole town for 2 hours. Trying to find an ATM that works is gonna be hell. And I am already hungry.
After walking around for nearly 10 minutes I finally found one. But the queue is really long.
Great!
After getting the money, I went straight to McD and ordered the Big Mac Meal. Waiting for my food to arrive, Sean and his friends arrived. I was hoping and praying that they don't notice me but luck was definitely not on my side as Markus shouted my name. I was in a booth where 6 people could sit.
"Ay yoh, Loverina" he walked to me and sat next to me. Two more guys came after him. They sat in front of us.
"So Loverina why are you here?" Steven asked.
"Why are you here? Cause I came here to get a tattoo of my name." I said.
"I was just asking okay. No need to fight. Anyways let me introduce you to my friends. That is Sean." He said pointing to a guy. He looks taller than me by a good head. Looking at him now, I realized he has a handsome face, sharp jawline and his eyes are like the night sky. If you would look too deep into them you would get lost yet they seem to pull you in. But I already did! I shout in my head.
"That is George." He said pointing to a guy with blond hair. I still don't get how a guy can have blond hair. But he looked good. His eyes are ocean blue and he is shorter than Sean.
"You do know you didn't have to introduce them to me. I know all of them." I say to Markus "Kinda hard not to." I say as my eyes wander to the boys. But they lingered more on Sean than necessary. As if feeling eyes on him he raised his head only to come eye to eye with me.
"Like what you see?"
"A-And what would that be?" I ask my voice betraying me when I stutter.
"Me obviously." he says innocently that you think that he isn't trying to tease me.
"Want me to buy you a chocolate?" I ask shocking both me and him.
*later that day*
"Who knew? Sean is such a play boy. The whole time I was at McD he was throwing what I would say smirks. I wouldn't call it flirting per say but it was highly close to that." I say to the girls retelling them what had happened when I was out.
I would say that was the first time I had gone out with boys. Not like gone out as a date but gone out as they found me in the shop and we just started talking.
"Honestly speaking though I think I might have a crush on..." before I could even finish speaking Regina cut me off.
"Don't tell me you have a crush on Sean." She said with a horrified look on her face. If I wasn't shocked I would be laughing my ass off right now because chances of me having a crush on Sean are zero. Not in a bad way but I am way out of his league and not even his type.
"No I was going to say I have a crush on Steven." I said with embarrassment. I don't know why but I felt shy saying that out loud. I mean sure he annoys the hell out of me. That might probably be the reason why I have a crush on him. The girls both gasped at my revelation. I am shocked.
"When did you realise you have a crush on him?" Nelly asked. Even I don't know. I shrugged my shoulders as an answer to her question.
"Well this is huge. We must celebrate." Regina said.
I looked at her perplexed. "Regina how can this be something worth celebrating? He might not like me back for all we know." I said and Nelly agreed with me.
*Nelly's POV*
Who cares if he likes you back or not? I asked myself. As long as I get Sean all to myself that's good. I noticed that Sean has been looking at Loverina with looks that I would like if they were directed to me.
He seems to take a liking into her. And I don't like that one bit. I came to this school because I wanted to be as close as possible to Sean. I want him to be my future husband. My parents said that's just wishful thinking but I know it can happen. As long as I take Loverina out of the picture.
I have already told Perseverance that Sean is taken. Mine and mine alone. And if I see her there again, I will make sure that her family goes bankrupt. I will do anything for him.
To reply to Loverina I said "you should see the way he looks at you. I know for a fact that he likes you."
Should I mention that with a fake smile plastered on my face? I hate Loverina because all of the attention seems to be going all to her.
She is beautiful, smart, funny and someone who is admired by everyone. I hate her. So I am going to make sure that Steven breaks her heart and that Sean never looks her way ever again.
*Regina's POV*
As I looked at Regina I saw the look of envy, hate, and canniness. She can't possibly be thinking of lying and deceiving my friend. Or else she will have to go through me.
To think that me and Sean kissed. But that was when I was in grade 8. Last year. I was drunk. But they don't have to know what happened.
*Loverina's POV*
"I don't know guys. But we will see. Anyways who else has a crush?" I asked hoping to remove all the attention from me.
"Well honestly I am not in the mood for any relationship right now. The last one was a daisy. And I don't want to go through that again. You know that guy made me hate boys. Imagine cheating on me with my cousin. Boys are the worst." Nelly said.
Nelly is one of those people who get into relationships to have fun. But she tends to fall for the guy and get her heart broken sometimes. Most of the time she plays the guys. I admire her courage to always keep going after a heart break. If it was me I would have given up a long time ago. I almost gave up after my ex-boyfriend cheated on me with my best friend. Well ex best friend.
"Well I have my eyes on this one guy." Says Regina while twirling her braids. Nelly and I looked at each other. Wondering who this person might be.
"Is it Sean?" Nelly asked. I was taken aback. Why would Nelly suggest Sean? I mean sure he is hot and all that but... Actually but nothing.
"Nope" Regina responded popping the p.
*later that day*
After the whole talk, Regina had at some point excused herself to go to the toilet. During that moment Nelly told me she has something to tell me later.
What Nelly told me was shocking. Honestly I have to admit that I never saw it coming and now I think maybe my ears are playing a mean trick on me.
So apparently Regina has a crush on Sean. And she doesn't want us to know. And Sean seems to have a liking for me. But doesn't want to approach me directly afraid of being rejected. That's why he keeps on sending that pesky Steven. But here I am, trying to convince myself that I might probably, actually it is not that I might, I am not his type.
But here is the crazy part. Regina knows that Sean might have a liking for me, she goes ahead and tries to convince me to date Markus so that Sean could date here. Twisted right?
Well not until you hear this one. Regina is working with Mira. With the promise that Mira will get any guy she wants. And who told me all this? My dear friend Nelly. I wonder where she got all this information. But who cares.
And here I am sitting on my bed trying to process this whole thing. But no matter how hard I try I can't.
I'm worried about this person who claims to be our friend. But one thing I learned here in Moyo Royal High is that no one can be trusted.
I am planning on having a chat with Sean as he is the main cause of all this. Even though it is indirectly he still is. But I don't know where I am going to start. Since today is Sunday I have approximately 14 hours till tomorrow. Till I approach him and talk to him about this whole thing.
Somewhere deep in my stomach a knot is forming.
Something life changing is going to happen tomorrow. And I can definitely wait for tomorrow.